You are such a hypocrite. No, wait, you two are both hypocrites. I dislike you both with every bit of dislike that I have in me right now. I'm trying very hard not to use "hate" or any form of profanities. Maybe it wasn't the pills that made me want to retrace my scars. Maybe it was you. I'm your dream girl, the child you always wanted, the one who does everything for you-- I make good grades, I make you proud. Why treat me like this? I get upset and you're not there for me. You just criticize, you always criticize. You criticize things in me that are also found in you. My throat hurts from holding back the tears that I won't let come. You aren't worth that, neither of you is worth that. I'm wasting my time being upset, retracing scars, breaking my toes from kicking the wall. I can't take this much longer.
Sunday, January 04, 2009
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Then fight back, with the wisdom of God.
I've grown a lot in the honoring category, not to say how great am I, but to show the difference between how it was and what I'm working on now. You know stories that I've shared, you know the situations where I wanted to scream and cry and just give up. But when I came to a point where I realized that none of this was working, I turned to God with it. I've shown more respect towards him in the past few months then I have ever. And he's begun to take notice and my relationship with him is getting better. And as I'm still and respectful, He is noticing, not for my Glory, but for His.
It's not the same situation. I know that. But God is the same in every situation, His goodness is the same. Give it to Him, and see what He wants you to do. What does He want you to do?
he (lowercase) is noticing* though I'm sure God is noticing too, haha, but He knows everything. :)
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