Are you blind? Are you sick? Are you mad? How can you not see? How can you not see? How can someone scream so loudly and lie so consistently and remain so completely overlooked? Yeah, I know it's been a while. Yeah, I know I've had time. I just don't know how to move. She, whom(who, whatever, grammar is a silly thing to worry about sometimes) I am a part of, tells me that I know what to do, I know how to move forward. But how? Can you remind me? No. Why? Because you know. I know, I know. No, I don't know. I don't know at all. Life is cut into neat little sections. And some areas are sucking the wellness out of other areas, and as these areas suffer, they lead to other areas suffering, which will eventually lead to life as a whole suffering, and complete contamination. Oh, I am so happy sometimes, but when I take a step over the line, I come down, spinning as wildly as the weakness spun down the drain today. I didn't lie, I just didn't tell you. And I won't tell you unless you ask. So ask away. I know that you won't because you're afraid. But it's OK, it's OK. I've live like this for so long, why not let it stay? This isn't what I want, but it's all I know how to get. I learn and I love, but faith without works is dead. I don't deserve the life I live. I know, I know, I am washed white as snow, but what good is white when it remains stationary and blind? How do I move?