[all of these quotes are not mine]

Suddenly, I knew what I had to do. Love isn't about ridiculous little words. Love is about grand gestures. Love is about airplanes pulling banners over stadiums, proposals on jumbo-trons, giant words in sky writing. Love is about going that extra mile even if it hurts, letting it all hang out there. Love is about finding courage inside of you that you didn't even know was there.
-Little Manhattan



At times, I do miss being your girlfriend. The one you looked forward to seeing every day. The one who lit up your world. The only reason for your happiness. But right now, more than anything, I just miss being in your life. It's been weeks since we've talked, even though I pass you every single day. Soon it will turn to months. I wish things didn't end the way they did. I really miss you. Not entirely to the point where I want to be with you again. But enough to make my heart ache.. when I think if the happiness that was brought to me every time you were around me. And I wonder, do you ever think the same?

"When I awoke this morning, you were still asleep. As I awoke I heard you gentle breathing. I saw your closed eyes beneath wisps of stray hair and I was deeply moved. I wanted to cry out, to wake you, but you slept so deeply, so soundly. In the half light your skin glowed with life so warm and sweet. I wanted to kiss it, but I was afraid of you awake in my arms again. Instead, I wanted something no one could take from me; mine alone ... this eternal image of you. Beyond your face I saw a pure, beautiful vision showing us in the perspective of my whole life... all the years to come, even all the years past. This was the most miraculous thing: to feel, for the first time, that you had always been mine. That this night would go on for ever, united with your warmth, your will. At that moment I realized, how much I loved you ... I wept with the intensity of the emotion. For I felt that this must never end, we would remain like this for all our lives, not only close, but belonging to each other in a way that nothing could ever destroy, except the apathy of habit, the only threat. Then you wakened and, smiling, put your arms around me, kissed me and I felt that there was nothing to fear. We would always be as we were in that moment, bound by stronger ties than time and habit."
-La Notte, 1961


this is me.

OK, so how do you make me so happy despite all of the pain that you have caused me over the past five years of my life? I mean, it's not like you've been present in these past five years, but you were a part of them, you'll always be a part of me. You were my first kiss, my first love, and nothing will ever change that. I just hate the fact that although we ended in such a bad way, I forgive you and will forgive you again if you do decide to hurt me a millionth time.