Do It for the Living and Do It for the Dead, Do It for the Monsters Under Your Bed

"Recent research suggests that an extremely strong desire for academic achievement may be as significant as sexual maturation, if not more so, in the development of eating disorders in young women. There is a combination of issues at work here: a family that has high expectations of achievement (as distinguished from genuine encouragement and prompting of a child to develop her intellectual skills); a child who is prone to excessive self-imposed pressure; and a child who exhibits unusual levels of academic ability and intelligence. The combination often results in mental paralysis. The child may defect from expectations--her own above all else--and take refuge in an entirely antirational set of behaviors that have, in fact, a highly organized structure. . ." --Wasted by Marya Hornbacher

I love reading. And not thinking about responsibility.

I also love the feeling of doing something practical and responsible.

116.8-- what a number!

Now I feel sick.